ay - ay
digital download (SNC-16)

"ay" is a 7-track album by ay. It was made after he abandoned his community that hurt him so much, and shut down Sonic4 Test Records for real. After releasing the album, he also officially renamed himself from Sonic4 to ay.

There are long track descriptions that are somewhat related to what each track is about. They're long rants about ay's personal experiences, feelings, and opinions about his past and present, ruined legacy, fake friends, guilt, regrets, and more.

It's really good for a short album that is also the last of Sonic4 Test Records.

"I put that as the album cover because that is the place I feel the most peaceful. I wanna go back there and talk with crazy K again. I avoided her for too long, lowkey. The words I wrote there are also the simplest way to describe how I'm feeling about y'all. I'm sorry for the pain, the false hope, the letdowns, the negativity, the suffering... And I hate you for also causing all of that to happen for me too. It was my fault for not realizing the truth sooner. It took me three seasons to understand that this was a mistake.

If you're actually curious about what I have to say this time, read the track descriptions. I said a lot of stuff there. And also, this album is SNC-16, which used to be the album code for LOVE EVERYONE. I deleted that album because it sucked and the name saintkoishi is not my name anymore. It became a bootleg piece of shit because of teat fucking thew.

Don't come asking me to delete your stuffs from VaultKid too. Teat Thew never forgets the history of this label and the people associated with it. He's an unemployed 10 year old obsessed with MusicBrainz. He adds the deleted albums, real and fake mixed together. It's malicious compliance.

In fact, don't come to me at all. I don't want to see ANY of you again. I don't personally hate any of you, but please stay the fuck away from me. And I hope you listen to my advice and move on from all of this. I believe that your life will be better if you stay away from the old crew too. The Careborn is gonna regret that new server. Don't do this to yourselves, y'all. Just go."

- ay